There is a separation. There are two separate reasons/effects of my behavior. One is being out there. The other is not being here. Being out there is OK; at least understandable. Exciting, new etc... It's also normal. The other one is not as easy. I had a bad day today. I've been through these thoughts many times. It always comes down to this; I don't have a story. I did not write my story. I've purposely, always stayed away from my own story. When I had to write something, I kept myself out of it. I never allowed myself to become ...Read More

Everything is moving. But it's not all the same kind of movement. We seem to move in a different way than most of the things around us. When we move, it's mostly for a purpose. We seem to know what we're doing. Reaching for things, looking forward for a destination... We even attribute the same purposefulness to the movements we see in nature. Animals chasing each other, plants following the daily movement of sun, seasonal migrations of large herds linked to the orbital rotation of earth around the sun... The first known movement based on a developed muscular and nervous system ...Read More